Stepping up

Carrying on from my last post I am needing to step up and embrace all that I have been learning about myself and my life purpose, life lesson and life school.  Part of having a life lesson and school of love is learning to embrace my fears of rejection and tomato fear (which is part of the lessons of my life purpose.  The "spotlight" part), which is the fear of having tomatoes thrown at me if people don't like what I have to say.

I am needing to get my foot of the brake and get a bit of courage up and tell people about my purpose.  It has taken me years to admit that I might be able to communicate between horses and people and help people see their reflection in their horses and help them move forward in their lives through my ability of observation of horse human interaction.  My mentors call it "horse whispering".  I don't know what to call it.  I struggle with the terminology of being a "Horse Whisperer"  I think of all the very talented horse people I know or know of and I start to compare myself.  I know what I do is different to them but they are the people who I think of when the term horse whisper is used.

In one of my mentoring sessions I told of a young horse that I was handling.  He has not really liked being round me ever since I had him castrated.  He is getting over that now though.  The other day I walked past him running my hand along his back as I went when he bit me on the back for what I thought was no reason.  My intuition straight out said to me "so where are you biting yourself on the back?"  And yes I would be my own worst back biter of myself, snapping at myself for entertaining thoughts of want and desire, even pushing myself out of my own herds telling myself I am too different or not good enough or people don't want to hear what I say.  All this is back biting and hurtful to myself.

Both my mentors said "so you are a horse whisperer".  And of course I went into denial as I tried processing their comment.  I am coming round to it now.  Although if I can find something else to call what I do something else, I will.  Any great ideas would be gratefully excepted. 

My mentors have also been challenging me to speak about my gift to people and I have been dodging this too.  I have mentioned snippets to friends but that has been all.  So now I have blogged about it as blogging is a spot light action and it is easy to share through facebook and other social media.

I would love to hear your comments or feedback or if you have a name for what it is I do please leave a comment or send an email through the thingy on the side of the blog post.

Until next time xx