Carrying on from my last post I am needing to step up and embrace all that I have been learning about myself and my life purpose, life lesson and life school. Part of having a life lesson and school of love is learning to embrace my fears of rejection and tomato fear (which is part of the lessons of my life purpose. The "spotlight" part), which is the fear of having tomatoes thrown at me if people don't like what I have to say.
I am needing to get my foot of the brake and get a bit of courage up and tell people about my purpose. It has taken me years to admit that I might be able to communicate between horses and people and help people see their reflection in their horses and help them move forward in their lives through my ability of observation of horse human interaction. My mentors call it "horse whispering". I don't know what to call it. I struggle with the terminology of being a "Horse Whisperer" I think of all the very talented horse people I know or know of and I start to compare myself. I know what I do is different to them but they are the people who I think of when the term horse whisper is used.
In one of my mentoring sessions I told of a young horse that I was handling. He has not really liked being round me ever since I had him castrated. He is getting over that now though. The other day I walked past him running my hand along his back as I went when he bit me on the back for what I thought was no reason. My intuition straight out said to me "so where are you biting yourself on the back?" And yes I would be my own worst back biter of myself, snapping at myself for entertaining thoughts of want and desire, even pushing myself out of my own herds telling myself I am too different or not good enough or people don't want to hear what I say. All this is back biting and hurtful to myself.
Both my mentors said "so you are a horse whisperer". And of course I went into denial as I tried processing their comment. I am coming round to it now. Although if I can find something else to call what I do something else, I will. Any great ideas would be gratefully excepted.
My mentors have also been challenging me to speak about my gift to people and I have been dodging this too. I have mentioned snippets to friends but that has been all. So now I have blogged about it as blogging is a spot light action and it is easy to share through facebook and other social media.
I would love to hear your comments or feedback or if you have a name for what it is I do please leave a comment or send an email through the thingy on the side of the blog post.
Until next time xx
A bit about life in the bush, what I learn from my horses and scientific hand analysis, and how I am learning to live my LIFE PURPOSE......
Monday, March 16, 2015
Saturday, March 7, 2015
Accelerate/Brake
The markings on your hands can reveal so much about you and where you are at this point in time in your life.
Right now for me I have been reminded about some lines in my hands just across from the webby bit between my thumb and pointer finger. There are some lines that go across my hands and some that go down ward or horizontal and vertical. These are yes and no lines and in this particular part of my hand it is where the courage is.
So what these lines are telling me is that I have one foot on the accelerator and one foot on the brakes. And it is all of my own doing. I cannot blame others for slowing me or stopping me from living my purpose, it is me that is holding me back.
How do I get out of this and step into my courage at what ever cost? I guess the first step is to take notice of my life lesson which is the same as my life school and that is LOVE. Start by saying how I feel in the moment. "I FEEL........." and embrace the feelings. No matter what they are. As a School of love person it is important for me to acknowledge my feelings and be ok with them and express them.
So my practice is to have the courage to express how I feel in the moment regardless of the expectation of others.
So here goes..... "I feel nervous" each time I write a post I am nervous of peoples reactions and if I have written something that people like what I have written and that I won't offend in any way.
The truth is I must write from my heart and if I do offend it is really none of my business.
Right now for me I have been reminded about some lines in my hands just across from the webby bit between my thumb and pointer finger. There are some lines that go across my hands and some that go down ward or horizontal and vertical. These are yes and no lines and in this particular part of my hand it is where the courage is.
So what these lines are telling me is that I have one foot on the accelerator and one foot on the brakes. And it is all of my own doing. I cannot blame others for slowing me or stopping me from living my purpose, it is me that is holding me back.
How do I get out of this and step into my courage at what ever cost? I guess the first step is to take notice of my life lesson which is the same as my life school and that is LOVE. Start by saying how I feel in the moment. "I FEEL........." and embrace the feelings. No matter what they are. As a School of love person it is important for me to acknowledge my feelings and be ok with them and express them.
So my practice is to have the courage to express how I feel in the moment regardless of the expectation of others.
So here goes..... "I feel nervous" each time I write a post I am nervous of peoples reactions and if I have written something that people like what I have written and that I won't offend in any way.
The truth is I must write from my heart and if I do offend it is really none of my business.
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